Living in the past

Do you know this feeling? Something you considered good in your life has changed. Something you had, something important, a part of you, changed. It isn’t there anymore. Probably you didn’t even realize how important it was or became to you before you lost it. Maybe you took it for granted and it wasn’t. In fact nothing is. But now, it’s gone. You have lost it or you missed the chance to get it. Now you start to realize how important this has been to you. Now you feel pain, suddenly.

And you start to remember, all the happy moments you had. You are looking back, analyzing what happened, what went wrong, what made it vanish, what did you wrong. And then, in some cases, you do see the reason clearly. Suddenly you know why you have lost it and you wish to be able to turn the time back. But you can’t. So you continue to look back, trying desperately to keep these happy moments in memory, to live them again and again. But however hard you try, these memories will fade away slowly, sadly.

And then, at times, life confronts you with your loss and with it comes hope. Thoughts jump through your mind, promising thoughts that it can be as it had been before you lost it. Your brain is fooling you with showing you the gone happy moments, pulling you back into the past. And you start acting on this illusion. It feels good for the moment. But this does not bring you any closer to it, in fact it pulls it even more away and the awaking of these dreams is usually hurtful and filled with sadness.

Obviously making the past to a purpose in life isn’t a good idea. What a surprise. Looking at it with clear mind, it’s crystal clear and we detect this behavior easily at others. But once self within this trap, living in the past ourselves, it’s not that easy to realize and even more hard to escape that trap. It’s easily said to live in the present, to look forward, but nobody taught us that it’s a hard and painful way.

The past is gone, and the present is a place filled with junctions. The problem is to pick the right path. But you will never choose the right one if you keep looking over your shoulder with self-pity and sadness. But if you are looking forward with a smile, you have a good chance to see the right path to walk on. So, turn your nose into the wind and start walking. Just as simple as that. So, let’s go …